going to the next level

it's the theme of my ex school's retreat and graduation day . it's true that within these days i'll be going to the next level , to senior high school ! ahaahaaa . hmm , at first they said that school is started at 19th of july . but now , i hear that it's started on 12th ! oh noo ! actually i'm happy . but , deeply in my heart , i have a big fear .

i'm afraid if i can get good scores as before .
i'm afraid if i can't make friend with others .
i'm afraid if the school's tottaly different .

this is a girl-only school .
the students are clever and dilligent .
they are talented .

i know that this school will cooperate with colose canisius in which a boy-only school .
but i'm still afraid . oh god ! help me to eradicate my fear .

i need to survive in this school . that's why i have a commitment .
i'll be more dilligent . no more playing all the time .
i need to get the rank . at least , big 3 .
i do not care what others call me such as freak or whatever .
as long as i be my self , i don't care .
i believe that with GOD in me , i can solve my problems .
HE will protect me with HIS angels .
i know that God will never give a trial to his people beyond the limits of their capabilities .
i need to struggle hard .
i have to make my parents proud of me .
i want that i'll be chosen to join some competitions .

actually there's a lot that i want .
i wanna have a boo who can accept me as who i am .
i wanna have great friends ! not only great , but loyal .

i know i can do it . cause nothing impossible if we wanna try hard .
JIA YOU ! i know that it's not only me who have big fear .
BRAVO ! GO GO GO ! YOU CAN MAKE IT !

i'm gonna missing you all - part 3

my third year ~

my third year was not as good as my first and second year . fiuuhh ~ firstly , i got a class in which the students are clever . it's hard for me to get the first rank . cause she's dilligent . and then , the class teacher was mr.hendro who is easily angry and doesn't care about us . 9C had a good achievement . they said that it was the cleverest class and i'm proud of it . *of course ! all teachers said that . hahahh =P don't know why , i can't tell a lot about 9C . cause the fact , we didn't have any great time . study study and study . we spent time together .

oh , i remember ! we used to pissed our teachers off , such as mr grandpa - mr.gideon , ms.susan , and another sucks teacher . what's funny here was mr.grandpa who's often comb his hair . funny rite ?! we liked to tell him that his hair was so messy , then he combed his hair . one sucks tragedy happened when mr.grandpa told ms.melly about it . she was angry in our class . and it was so damn ! hahahh ~ no one heard what she said .

when we had english test , we used to work together ! even the cleverest student in the class . it's really funny ^w^

9c had no farewell party . and you know why ?! BECAUSE OUR CLASS TEACHER DIDN'T CARE ABOUT US ! SUCKS !

tha last year should be the best , but i think with this kind of class teacher , we got NOTHING !

i'm gonna missing you all - part 2

heyy guys ! now , i will tell you about my second year . the second year was not bad . it's as fun as the first year . firstly , i feel so wow to see the new building of my school . we moved from the primary's building to our own building . hahahh . i went up to my class and checked my name . i was put in 8a ! wooww ~ i felt so happy . we start making friends here . on the opening ceremony , it was said that my class teacher was the new teacher named ms.lenny . everyone was thinking which one is ms.lenny . but , soon our principal said that ms.lenny couldn't come beacause she had chicken pox . so we started our day without our class teacher .

three days later , ms.lenny came . and i was chosen as the class leader . woww ! *again . i've never thought about it . we have great days together . we used to sing together , eat together , chit-chatting together .

8A had their time with ms.lenny . we love to tell her what happened that day . even , i'd ever come to her house ! her house is in citra garden city 6 . i enjoy talking with her . but , since she has been the principal , she changes a lot . we never had a talk together . i've never gone to her home . hahh ==

8A had their first performance on christmas too . we had the musical drama . end everybody njoyed our performance so much ! hehehh ^w^ 8a had a lot of talented students . on entrepreneurship day , our jingle group won and got idr 500.000 . great right ?! hehehh . and we won again during the language day as the first winner . i have also gave an achievement by being the third winner on math competition . it was a great time afterall .

8A had their farewel party on dufan . and don't you know ?! it was on the special day of mine . hahahh =P 21st june . i celebrated my birthday with them , and it was so fantastic . once again , it was so unforgettable .

8A was so special in my heart . togetherness always shows who 8A is . we can achieve everything if we want to try hard and do it together . all for one and one for all . remember not to forget the time we sang together with an old guitar !

i'm gonna missing you all - part 1

hosh hosh ! it's been july ! and i'll gonna go to my senior high ! i'm glad to hear that . but i think i don't wanna go to my new school =( feel like it's better for me to stay in my old school . it sounds terrible to be at the new school . do you know ?! my new school is saint ursula . it's totally different with citra kasih . i don't wanna say goodbye with my friends . in a good and bad time we've stayed together . i remembered with all things that happened .

i still recall the first time i went to citra kasih jhs . it's the only school i registered . the first day was felicitous ! i saw a lot of my p-6 friends . i got the 7b class with ms.anita wulur as the class teacher . my first impression about that school was really good . i meet a lot of friends . days passed by . we spent our time together . i meet a lot of good friend and really close friends . hmm . when i was in grade 7 , i learned so much . i learned how to make songs , make friends with other , be optimistic , and respecting others .

i spend a lot of time in chit chatting with friends during break time . our class had a special habit . we ate together among the school corridor together . no matter boys or girls , we're just friends . we're having fun ! i remembered when the boy-who-called-me-everyday sat next to me , i was very happy . hahahh =P it's a really great time .

7b had their first performance on christmas concert with our brand new song made by me and jp . we practiced a lot with ms.anita . it was hard to control the students . we fight , we screamed , and we ran away during the practicing time . but it was resolved . we can perform our best in front of the stage . the next performance was in the orphanage . we sang the song heal the world . that time , i played the keyboard with priska , ms.anita , and jp played the guitar . it was so FANTASTIC ! we entertained the children who have no parents anymore . we felt satisfied to see their smile , their smile were just so peaceful and inspirit us . 7b was the best class ever ! we had a great time to please other people . like father like son . ms.anita always teaches us to be kind to others , and so do we .

on feb , our school held entrepreneurship day . i joined the jingle group . we made two songs . one's about citra kasih and the other one's about ciputra mall . it's great to gear that our songs were chosen to be the winner . and my friend said that our ciputra mall song was played in ciputra mall .

after joining the jingle group , i joined the business plan . i learned a lot here . i learned to organize friends , be creative , and innovative . and i've never expected that we would be the grand winner . we met ciputra , presented our business plan among the lecturers , and we had a dinner with mr.ciputra also other important persons from ciputra group =P it was so unforgettable .

last but not least , on june 6th we had our farewell party . we had the badminton time , bbq time , singing along together , and played with water to clean up the school ! during this time , i made a special song for ms.anita with angel . all teachers who came were just shocked and felt happy to hear that song . ms.anita was crying at that time . it was soo amazing !

the song was written by me and angel

mengapa semua ini harus terjadi
di dalam hidupku yang indah ini
mengapa engkau harus meninggalkan diriku
di saat ku membutuhkan dirimu
kita adalah satu keluarga
yang takkan pernah bisa terpisahkan
ku berharap kita akan bersama lagi
bersama-sama untuk selamanya

aku bernyanyi jauh dari dalam hatiku
hanya untukmu guruku tersayang
aku berharap kita takkan pernah berpisah
namun harapan hanyalah harapan
kita adalah satu keluarga
yang takkan pernah bisa terpisahkan
ku berharap kita akan bersamap lagi
bersama-sama untuk selamanya

special thanks to our teachers who have taught us the lesson of life . thanks to ms.anita , mr.satya , mr.lean , ms.inge , ms.ia , mr.daniel , mr.victor , and other tecahers i cannot mention . you are all have a special place in my heart always .

i need to improve it !

suddenly i remember that day . on wed , i have my english course . my ma'am said that i got the first rank ! yippiiee ! that sounds great , rite ? but .. after that , we were doing some lil' exercises about the toefl . for the grammar my group got the best score . but , for the vocabs , we were the worst . =( i realize that i need to improve my vocabs to compete with others . i need to do my best . so , i have my goals in this remaining holidays . hmm . i'm trying to list down every vocabs that i've just read and find the meaning . i really need to struggle hard .

firstly , i feel forlorn . but i think it again and again that being forlorn is not the best way to solve this problem . i remembered what a book said . it said that winner is not the one who only sees his problems , but winner is the one who sees the problems and finds a way to solve it . befitting to that book , i need to find the way and i've find it ! so guys , help me to improve my vocabs by supporting me ! yeaaa =P

if you have problems , don't look at it too long . you need to solve it . by looking on it , you will not get any solution , rite ?!